Met him

Met him on the bus today. *faintz* my heart juz got so excited. Dunno whats wrong with my heart. It juz can’t calm down. The angel/devil told me to smile at him. The devil/angel told me to ignore him. DILEMMA!!!!!!

Can u imagine..talking to someone and became friends. I mean..like friends..but yea..never meet before each other. That’s weird ya..nowadays there’s no IRC.. but again..there’s such a thing called friendster. And messaging. That’s how we get to know each other.
I guess it has been months. After exams till now.. 2 months? 3 months? yeapz.. at first i tot it’ll be appropriate to meet up ur “fren”. But heeding some advices from frenz whom i’m close with.. and their analization of Him.. conclusion is better not to meet up. But.. well.. the devil ask me to meet him. While the angel ask me to reconsider..ha.. till now.. i still can’t really decide. Btw, the devil and angel is in me. Nobody else. ahaha. There’s always the angel and devil in everyone isn’t it? haa… but the power of the angel and devil may varies. Alright..i’m crapping.

Anywae.. i saw him on the bus today. BUT he din see me..or maybe he ACT like never see me. AIyOoo…so weird to see someone in real life..by recognising how they look in the pictures. Well, he look like he look in the pictures. No doubt that’s him. He can’t recognise me..alamak.. this shows how diff i look in my pictures.. sigh.. can anyone tell me if i look the same or very diff from my pictures? haha..
END OF STORY….

Hair cut

It has been quite sometime since i last blog.
School reopen, and i’ve been getting busy quite alot.

Selling and purchasing of books.
Have to go webmail and take a look.

Sometimes, transaction will be carried out.
But often, your post will be left out.

Too many first yr common engine books for sale.
But hardly see any MAE books or others in the mail.

Life’s gonna be busy.
I’m gonna be crazy.

One week back, i was excited for school to start.
Decided to go a place for hair cut.

Thought it’ll be a gd start.
With a new hair cut.

Unfortunately, it turned out to be a nightmare.
That made me sware, never to go back there.

One week later after a week of tiring lectures.
I decided to look for professionals.

Went to Storm at jurong point.
Hoping to find the turning point.

Regaining my confidence,
Gaining some prettiness.

Alas! My hair is back to the nice layering.
Pampering myself with nice hair massaging.
Leaving jurong point with a pair of heels after shopping.

Back to home sweet home.
Gonna take a nappy after bloggy.

First day of sch

first day of sch is always full of excitement. But at the end of it is tiredness. Was so tired today becos yesterday i had many dreams. I woke up at 4am and couldn’t fall back to deep sleep. I think i miss ah gu ba ba too much. I dream of him. Sigh.. but i think he’s doing well in another world. He was wearing a grey suit. Yesterday went to tiong bahru.. and we went over to some place to “fang shen”. Let those poor thingy birds out from the cage and bless our loved ones. After which we went over to tiong bahru and have our dinner. Ah na cook some yummy chicken wings and dishes. Although i know food can make me happy, but i still feel sad. Because when i went to my cousin room, i realised that they are crying again. Sigh.. they miss their dad. Everyone is around, but no more ah gu ba ba. Sigh.. It’s hard to forget someone u really love or not to miss someone you really love who’s gone. He’s the head of the family.. the head of my big family. sigh.. miss ah gu ba ba

First day of sch.. as usual, we had our lectures. the first lecture was terrible becos there’s this bunch of idiots. they happily sat beside me and chat thru out the lecture. They guys are so uncivilised.. tok so loud. And happily say things like ” out of ten guys.. they only see one or two. Glanced thru the lecture but dun seem to see any girls.. must really browse then can spot them.” happiness lor.. i was juz beside them..helllloooooooo. Argh.. irritating. “hai” wo cannot concentrate..can’t even hear what the lecturer talking. Irritating manz.

Today’s a tiring day, but fortunately, ryan sent me home. But.. argh.. din bring my key den waited so long for mummy. Took a nap after i got home at ard 3. Err.. probably not a nap. haha.. slept till like 730pm. Hee.. now feel quite awake le. Gonna jia jia you le.. wanna look thru some of my notes soon. No longer wanna be a slacker. *promise*

To take or not to take?

Sigh.. i took up a tuition offer. its gd cos it means i’ll get more allowance and money.. hehe.. bUT bad cos it means i might have to give up my GE. btw..tuition fees not very gd this time..cos its neighbour leh..mummy wans me charge cheaper. so i charge 160 only.. for three sub..primary 2 kid..twice a week somemore..sianz. Haven add GE… but if i would to add.. it means..all my afternoon will be busy, and i can’t teach. SO how? to take up GE or not leh? think now i dun have a choice ah. Sigh.. think i’ll have to take GE next sem or so. Hopefully there’s enough time for me to take next sem, intersem or during hols. Pray hard.

Argh!! called evelyn and ask abt our pay. Idiot lor.. she ask me what happen to my phone. She dunno how to call me later issit. I sleeping ma..and she blame me for not picking up the call and cause the rest not to get their pay..wat is this????!!??????? @#*@*!# ArGH!!!!!!!!!! i wan my pay now!! hai.. she say they decided to pay us cash..but she say she hafta wait for them to settle the cash and get back to her, den she’ll get back to us. so mahfan.. can’t they juz pay us..not As if its like $2000 each.. irritating.. Argh.. toopid Giordana.. its juz $200 per person lor..and how many ppl? juz 5 lor.. irritating manz.. they better call me before MOnday!! if not Xuan shall do the pestering next.. muahah..or ying, Yq.. haha

two me..haaha

two me..haaha 

candid shots

candid shots 

haha

haha 

i was really bored with old pics

i was really bored with old pics 

fine.. i was bored..juz take some old pics and do …

fine.. i was bored..juz take some old pics and do some effect..new pics cannot transfer to com alr.. sigh 

sigh..no more pictures!

my nikon transfer thingy got problem.. sigh.. no more photos uploaded in com. No more photos in friendster and no more photos in blog..sigh..and sch reopening..life is gonna be very boring.
haha.. but today at least did sth. play mahjong at my hse. but alamak..forever losing leh.. lost $19 bucks. sigh.. ahah.. next time must take my revenge ah.. =p
tml going sch for talk, sch notes sale with jo, bec, qx.. all MAE.. yeah!!

My hair is short..but not that short tough

Sigh!! i cut my hair.. =( its kinda short now. cos my cousin bf is a hairstylist.. listen to him lor..tell my mum ask me cut my hair for 3 inches.. ended up the lousy hairstylist at some jurong area cut my hair for ard 5inches.. feel so short now. though its not say short..but u know long hair short? yea..if u know me.. my hair is super duperly long lor..now its juz long. sigh.. should have gone over habor front to find my cousin bf to cut for me. heh.. but dunno if ppl free not also. sigh..now cannot liao.. the person happily cut short for me without lyering.. and i feel my hair is so thick now.

tml yeah! mahjong at my hse.. ahha.. been sometime since i play real mahjong. always play online mahjong when i’m bored.. think i’m kinda addicted to the game. =P

No more funeral..no more work

no more work aready. i wanna thank jo for replacing me for two days.. =) without her.. it will be tough for me. thanks jo jo.. i’ll pay u ur pay soon once i got mine.

funeral was sad. everyone was sad and many of us said prayer for my ah gu.. hope he rest in peace. I tried not to cry when we’re going to cremate him. but i juz can’t control my tears.. i cried terribly.. but dun worry..i’m alright now. i juz hope he’ll rest in peace. he’ll be watching over us.. i know now he does not need to suffer anymore. he’ll always be in all our hearts. Ah gu ba ba.. wo men hui yong yuan xiang nian ni..ji de ni de. ni an xin de zhou ba.

yesterday went over to tiong bahru.. and i went to browse ah dang’s computer..the pics they took in japan, auz, chinese new yr, graduation, family pics at east coast and stuffs. sigh.. i’ll not cry anymore.. i will not. Ah gu ba ba.. u rest in peace k. miss u.

i regret for not visiting him on saturday when i went over tiong bahru market wif my first htree months frenz.. at least i can see him for the last. and regret taking up giordano job on tuesday. if not i can go over to the hospital and see him on wed before he leaves us.

but what to do? everything is over. nO more work..No more ah gu ba ba. but i know he lives in us..forever. although i cannot see him now.. but i know he’s up there in heaven looking over us. my work ended on saturday.. and i went to pastamania in causeway pt to have lunch alone.. i would say work keep me occupied and stop me thinking.. and somehow times flies.. the funeral juz ended on sunday afternoon..

know everyone is sad. but live still goes on.. Dun worry.. i’ll be the chirpy ang mei ting soon. =) Treasure everyone ard you

i knew u’re sad.. but so am i

my cousin super duperly sad lor.. though we spent the night laughing and talking.. but i still feel sadness.. she cried sometimes.. and i know she really misses ah gu ba ba. And we keep going and have a look at him. i miss him too. :’( can u imagine.. someone so close to u..lying in the coffin. motionless.. sigh. how? he really die leh. hai.. no more ah gu ba ba. And my cousin keep saying ” i no more ba ba” and we both will start crying. though we tried very hard not to. ah gu ba ba is a very nice person leh.. sigh.. hai. he’s 61 this yr only. i know he suffered alot since he fell sick many times in and out from hospital. there’s many moments with him. today i cried becos several times i tot of him.. like when i buy popiah and eat.. i’ll think of the time when i buy him a popiah with special request. sigh.. no sweet sauce for him and no nuts. Hai.. but he’s alr gone. will nvr buy popiah for him :’( last night stay up at the funeral with cousin.. play cards.. and i tot of him again. when i’m young.. he teach me how to play daidee.. and he’ll always say..its “daddy”. sigh.. :’( he’ll leave us on sunday.. i dun wan sunday to come. :’(

SICK

I’M SICK..AND VERY SICK NOW. FLU, BODYACHE, BACKACHE, LEG ACHING, HAND ACHING, HEART ACHING!!!!!!!

my uncle juz passed away

sigh..one of my closest uncle juz passed away.. sigh….. he’s my so called godfather. =( he juz left so suddenly. how can it be? i still couldn’t believe it. heard this news after work today. and i juz break into tears.. in causeway pt. argh!!!!!!! how how?? he really left us ah..till now i still couldn’t believe it. tml dun feel like working but can’t stop work. sigh.. what shld i do? waiting helplessly for my sis bf to fetch me to uncle’s funeral.. and its getting late.. sigh.. he juz left us alll. he’s the so called head of the big family. the many wars he went thru.. in australia.. in singapore.. in japan.. those tough operations he went thru.. and now when everyone thought he’s heeling well at home.. no more operations.. sigh.. why so sudden? :’( the last family gathering, he’s so happy.. had bbq at tiong bahru garden. he organised it. i even went early to help up. Saw him teaching the maid cook the fired beehoon.. he sitting at a corner asking all of us to eat. take photographs and stuff.. the times i used to stay at his hse during hols wif cousin. Go tiong bahru market buy breakfast for them. Play cards with him. Chinese new yr gathering. Now without him.. everything juz turn out not right.. argh… i want him back! God!!!!!!! why did u take him away.. my ah gu ba ba.. this is whaT i used to call him. sigh…………………………………